Friday, January 3, 2014

From Let Them Have Polish to Holographic Hussy to Me!

So I initially saw this on Pinterest:

and fell in love! Unfortunately as so often happens I was quite disappointed that the link didn't take me where it "should". I did some digging though and eventually found it back in a July 2012 post on Holographic Hussy. Apparently,  Ms. Claudia was actually inspired herself by a June 2012 post from Cristina at Let Them Have Polish! So finally it's found it's way here to me, and this is my attempt:

I used Orly Bubbly Bombshell (over top of OPI Black Onyx) because I liked it and I've never seen the Nails Inc. brand in Ulta or Sally Beauty which are the main places I get my beauty supplies. My version is not great, and my right hand doesn't really "match" my left hand (my right hand has more glitter overall than the left hand), but this was my first attempt at a glitter gradient and I'm generally pleased. I'll definitely try it again, although next time I might try a different technique for doing the gradient. I read about a lot of methods online and watched some youtube videos, and decided on this one where you sort of just dab the glitter off a mostly dry brush, then spread it down. Next time I might try the makeup sponge technique and/or also use more than one glitter polish (a fine glitter like this in addition to a glitter with bigger pieces in it like the Nails Inc. one Claudia and Cristina used). I also need to buy some Gelous, which I just read about today, and as soon as I finish the top coat I'm currently using I'm going to get some Seche Vite which is apparently "the best".

So that covers the polish, on to the picking. *sigh*

I used to get "lost in the mirror" picking at my face for long periods of time, but last night I sort of got lost on the internet. I know that happens to everyone, but I was definitely up way later than I planned on being, and way later than I should have been on a work night. Anyhow, I found an interesting blog by a 17 year old girl named Emma who seems very troubled, but takes great ownership of her disorder; she also seems so proactive in trying to increase the general public's awareness of Dermatillomania, Trichotillomania, and other body-focused repetitive behaviors (BFRB's). It is quite impressive, to me at least, that someone so young can be so open with their problems. I have never even discussed my depression or skin picking with any friends or family other than my husband. I am a very guarded and private person and I don't share many "real" things with people. I don't know why, it's just the way I am. That's why you'll never see a picture of me here on this blog - just my hands! :) Check out what Emma has going on here.

Her blog took me to The Derma Project.

I watched two chapters and found them to be very interesting and comforting. I've known for a long time now that I am not alone in this disease or disorder or whatever you call it, but at the same time I feel alone. I really don't think my husband gets it, and he's the only one I talk to about it at all. Even if it doesn't offer any help towards getting better, it is nice to know that I am part of some community of people dealing with the same problem.

The Derma Project got me reading about Angela Hartlin. Apparently she is an advocate in the mental health field and spreads awareness and information about BFRB. She has what seems to be a thorough website and a documentary called Scars of Shame that I wouldn't mind checking out.

Like a mini-internet within the internet, those videos got me lost in youtube land. I watched several others videos, mostly just people talking about their own personal experiences with skin picking and BFRB's. I particularly like this one below, especially the song by Sixx:A.M.

So, I guess in summary, my whole point is that it's nice to know their are other people out there trying to get better too.

P.S. - Sorry for the crazy long, crazy rambling blog. I'm no professional writer, just using this as a place to get it all out.

Oh, P.S.S. - Sorry about another hot pink polish. I'm really starting to look pretty boring here, but I guess I just like what I like. I do have lots of others though, and I'll show 'em off soon!

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